Magdalena

daughter of Małgorzata

granddaughter of Maria

great-granddaughter of Stefania

Why do I do what I do? My own story has become the inspiration…

MY LIFE STRATEGY WAS TO ESCAPE

 I was running away from myself and my emotions, with which I had no contact. Every time things got tough, I moved to another city or country. That went on for a dozen or so years. With each move, I was accompanied by the same feeling of emptiness and misunderstanding. Eventually, I ran out of strength to escape. Helplessness kept me in place. That’s how it all began… 

ALWAYS FOR SOMEONE ELSE, NEVER FOR MYSELF 

I was a good girl who didn’t set boundaries and never said “NO”. Others’ needs were more important than my own. I was hungry for acceptance, love, and a sense of belonging, and my well-being depended on how others saw me. Imagine my surprise when, during inner work, I discovered that I felt best in my own company.

My body was frozen

I was disconnected. I didn’t feel. I lived in my head, where the feeling of emptiness grew. The loudest voice was the inner critic, whom I believed, telling me I wasn’t good enough. My body begged for attention with illnesses, injuries, and insomnia. Temporary relief came from dancing and substances. Anorexia, anxiety, and physical abuse programmed strong defense mechanisms in me. I am learning about these mechanisms. I examine what is good in them and what I can reprogram to support me more. I play and learn at the same time, on my terms.

I EMBRACE EVERY STORY THAT HAS SHAPED MY PATH. I’M ON LIFE’S TRAIL TOWARD LOVE…