daughter of Małgorzata
granddaughter of Maria
great-granddaughter of Stefania
Why do I do what I do? My own story has become the inspiration…
I was running away from myself and my emotions, with which I had no connection. When things got tough, I would move to another city or country. This went on for several years. With each relocation, I had the same feeling of emptiness and misunderstanding. Eventually, I ran out of strength to escape. Helplessness held me in place, where I began the journey to find myself.
I used to be a well-behaved girl who didn’t set boundaries and didn’t say “NO”. The needs of others were more important than my own. I hungered for acceptance, love, and a sense of belonging, and my well-being depended on how others saw me. I feared that someone might not like me. So, I wore the mask of that witty, fearless Magda, who always knows what she wants. I could have won an Oscar for acting because the people close to me didn’t know what I was going through inside.
I felt disconnected from myself, numb. I lived in my head and longed for a connection. I was hungry for closeness and felt like I wasn’t getting it. More and more beliefs crept into my mind that my partner didn’t love me, and I wasn’t respected at work. As sleep issues began and panic attacks increased in frequency, a question popped into my head: “- Is this all my life has to offer?” This question marked the beginning of my transformation.